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109

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Kent, WA

Birthday

March 1
 
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Age

109

Birthday

March 1

Location

Kent, WA

 

About Me


I've lost the taste for spikes and knives. This is the chance to live one life. I cannot decieve it or run away. I might not return the next day. These people they lie with they're lack of god. No faith. No hope. They are one pod. They work together hating social balance. They procratinate. They cry. Still they deny. I used to believe being myself was enough. But without morals, values, what else can be sought? I'm writing in poem. I'm sucking real bad. I'm not that good. I'm insanely mad.
Hulo. I am Natasia. Yes, Natasia. People have a hard time visiting, so if you got to read this. I give you kudos. Props. Because it's not easy finding this spot. Well, I lack alot of things that people expect. I'm not that great. I'm not the best. I can be better than the things you had. I can be greater then the things you left. I'm 16 and growing. I've cried and then some. I enjoy the silence but I dream the noise. I want to write. I have many dreams. I do not know if I'll ever

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many, many....

Favorite Books

Taming of the shrew, Emma, Les Misreables, GOF, HP series to be exact, The Prince...I still need to read more. Not that I enjoy it.....
 

Favorite Quote

"Bless my nippers, Bless them all day long"
 

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nobody till you : Mar 5, 2005
wait till your words fall from grace
I'm left confused and out of place
This is nothing but a dream of mine
it's why I think and wait all the time
It's worth the while sitting in a puddle of tears
because your presence is worth my fears
Listen for your eyes to face me
I'm standing holding on a fantasy
This is just a shiver within me
it's why I stand still ,dream, close my eyes
Intense and addictive causing me to shatter
I'm weak but I won't let it go
I'm unhappy but I can't let you know
Crazy and scared causes me to shatter
I'm attached but I won't break the flow
I'm confused but I can't walk out the door
This is my endless misery
and my only way to find company
So I say to myself things will get better
but it progressively gets worse
I close my eyes and lie to myself
even as you walk and say goodbye
You'll come back and hold me close
You'll come back and let me know
that there's no other place you could run
We're here and things are left undone
My mind is spinning and rushing out of control
It's your name that I can only recall
Your perfection is my incorrection
It completes the circle that is our home
Even if you don't remember my face
you come back and feel this is your place
Without your shadow, who will I be?
When you're the only thing that completes me.

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Sep 16, 2005 5:35 PM
 
hey tash, how u been girl?well, life is just so fucked up...LOL...now thats no surprise...hope you doing good in school...hafa kalan u LOST WEIGHT? girl, i thot that when u go to the states you blow up?!?(thinks) well, whats up? man, gosh ryt now I'm just giving up!!to tell u the truth I still haven't moved on with the whole ZACH situation!ai yai yai!yeah we are still friends, I guess, but out of nowhere hes been mean..HOW RUDE! well yes I am in the process of being over MAHALANG but imma give it a PAUSE...man he wont talk to me for some reason but hey if he wants it that way I guess I could handle it..if thats what he wants then I'll give to him...LOL...he dusnt know what he wants anymore...just jiggling...well i would love to write more but I gotta do something..so yeah...tell your mom that I said niora and tell your dad i said niot and tell si LOLI, JUNJUN, and EDLYNE that I said concentrate in your school work....K...bye!love ya lotz and always thinking of you guys...bye bebe face!LMFAO! bye! love always your loving crazy and weird cousin, tanya lynn crisostomo babauta...ROCK ON DUDE!
 
Feb 28, 2005 3:01 AM
Oshee says:
 
[8]HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU....... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WESLEY/MERMAID JANE[sung fast like how little kids sing when you have a LONG name] HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!![8] Well, just wanted to say.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY, OH MY SWEET MERLIN, IS MY WESLEY DRAYZIER GROWING UP! Next thing you know it, she'll be ninty! [not really planning on that one though...] I can't believe I won't be there! aww.... this sucks... anyway, have a TERRIFIC[woah.. that word just came out of thin air and onto the keyboard... weird...] birthday and LOTS OF LOVE FROM ME AND JUANDA AND FATSO[Frankie/Sunshine]!!! HAVE FUN! Bid thee good luck! LOVE LOTTS! DON'T FORGET IT!-Jordan
 
Feb 26, 2005 11:33 PM
Oshee says:
 
WESLEY ANNE JACOBS DRAYZIER-CAULDWELL.... She will be forever Wesley in my mind because she is. Wesley is someone I cannot see myself without in the future. She changes constantly which gets on people's nerves, but people need to change in order to find themselves[i sound stupid and corny...]. She is the voice of reason in my head.. The first time I met her, I kind of didn't like what I saw.... Because I saw myself, and she made me feel intimidated. The way she was, the cutting...... bread, the kind of music she listens to, the obsession with the computer, the way she dressed, hell, even the brands! People that saw us in junior high would think we were separated in birth. I was surprised, she was always lashing out on me when she was in her bad mood, but what she would say would sting me. Because it was the truth, and I ALWAYS need the truth. If I was talking like I was scorn with conceit, she'd tell me. Then I'd change. I've always considered her the best of the best 'cause she is.. She just thinks she's not, though. Wes was, is, and still a good writer. The stories she writes [which will be kept locked forever *puts padlock on hotmail, plus bolting five hundred others*] are ALWAYS the best. She writes good poems, good lyrics... BUT The stories were always the best. She's been always there whenever I needed to talk to her,[sometimes she would ignore me but I manage] and whenever I couldn't talk to her, she was there in her email, her xanga, her livejournal, and hi5..... fjeoia;! So much, isn't it?? Anyway, Wesley changes herself all the time..... BUT She'll always be my mermaid jane.. My Wesley Drayzier.... The rain to keep away the light... She's the one who taught me how to think outside the box.... That I could be WHATEVER I wanted to be whenever.... At all times... Wes is always trusting.... So cunning and evil... Yet always emotional.... You'll have to be careful with her feelings, she's kind of fragile. Wesley is a wishful thinker...... I mean, we are wishful thinkers... NO We're codfish friends, more like.. hah! Well, I'm not really awesome... She's the one that's awesome to begin with... I always have to owe it to WEs 'cause REALLY without Wesley, I'm just Oceana, and that SUCKS. I'm always ALWAYS Oceana... Just ONCE I'd rather be somebody else... So we made new identities...... heh... TOO much information, you think, Wes?? Well, I'll be there one day, clapping my little retarded/ "Special" claps as you do your best spazzes... I like the one where you get a seizure while you do that thing where you pull your hand over your head and... yeah.. i can see you do it, it's just I CAN'T describe it... It's a wonderful dance.... So....... I'll see you down at Liverpool tomorrow... [winks] take care of the blonde ferret, heard he was acting up lately...[looks down at shoes] ciao bella!- Jordan Isabella/The Raven/Moon Faerie
 
Feb 26, 2005 6:04 AM
 
haha. thanks for the testimonial again. lol. i was laughing whilst* i was reading it! i read it twice cuz it was that funny! haha. mr. masturbation. oh its testes. lol. i'm studying biology and i actually listen! lol. anyhow. yea! we totally got closer! i guess mr. masturbation is one factor. lol. we totally get along about that! natasia is the most COOLEST, NICEST, KINDEST, WITTIEST, sarcasticest...is that a word..person i know! haha. well i'm using wrong grammer haha! i'm getting back at you mr lee! muahahahha! jk. yea i'm unjust and cruel! i like that!! muahahha! *evil laugh* heehee. anyway. natasia i like her life. it seems so interesting. i don't want to repeat myself from the previous testimonial. but wat da heck why not? tash is b-eau-t-i-f-u-l. in and out. i wonder why mr masturbation isn't replying. how rude! well i don't think i'm patient..lol but thanks anyway. natasia is more patient than i am. she knows how to keep a conversation going when i think to myself uhhhhhhhh.....i'm braindead when it comes to conversations. unless it involves sarcasm and cruelty! bwahaha. lol. oopss im walking the wrong path! i'm like giving you a personal mssg instead of a testimonial. ok. natasia knows how to pick guys *winks*! she's fun to chat with. definitely. she weird and i'm weird. no wonder why we get along. we send mssgs through myspace even though both of us are online. haha. i'm think you're more obsessed with mr masturbation instead of tom felton? am i right???? lol. she's a romantic. you've changed from rockish/gothic to romantic ever since mr masturbation came into your life?? did you? hm. idk. lol. that's totally rad!! *head bang* yeah!! yeah!!..its so fun to chat with her. and its her b-day soon!! happy b-day to you..i could go on and on and on and on and on. ok i'm doing it..ugh..about her but i don't think hi5 will allow me. or will it? hmm..thinking thinking thinking..ok here i go again. she thinks about people a lot. i mean in a generous way. she's super kind i'm telling you!! hey hey. i'm tired and sleepy and and and..its 12 here. i'm gonna go sleep now. i'll write you another one as soon as i remember!! i'm gonna write more testimonials 4 you than any other person!....i think....lol..take care there. love you lots. yes. in a lesbian way. haha. kidding. not in a lesbian way you freaks! *slaps your face and bites your ear just like mike tyson* no not you tasha. the freaks. lol. this girl is an all-around friend..she's there to encourage, help, and put a smile on your face! she's one of my bestest friends that i can't live without! long-distantly of course. her kindness rubs onto me. that's why i've been nicer to dong hwi. hahaha. !!! i thought i was gonna sleep. i woke up. teehee. ok now i'm sleeping. *snores*..this is so frickin' long! lol. but i'm glad. yea i think this is more like a mssg. lol. who effin cares! sayonara dear friend. take care over there in kent. happy bday agn!! soon..*exits*
 
Feb 7, 2005 12:02 AM
Swift says:
 
This girl is the Koolest.. she like the hole puck rock thing and i think that is kool... she is my coz and and is very good to me and every body else. she is a good person and a good friend.. I hope to see you later... bye .... Oscar Jr Masga
 
Feb 5, 2005 5:32 PM
James says:
 
u look good in that pic
 
Feb 5, 2005 5:10 PM
 
"Something breaks inside of you
With the spectacle of all the shows
With fifteen fights and your six bucks
has gone up some promoters nose
Jaded eyes see clearly but only half of whats there
Good old days are left behind whats left is boredom and despair
But sometimes every once in a while
Its beautiful I would say, I wouldn't have it any other way
If I said different it would be a lie
What was once rebellion is now clearly just a social sect
But are you just upset because your own social clique has left
Leave when you want because I know that someday I will too
But I wont burn my bridges and be just another jaded fool"- Jaded by Operation Ivy *okii moving on.. haha i dont know why i chose that song. i guess i like it and on the plus side! i think were all a lil jaded? dont ya think? okii this girl overrr here... away from this tiny island she once lived in, is one awesome person who is obssessed with TOM FELTON and harry potter.. (lol from what ive seen in her xanga!) okii shes a kind spirit and is just so nice. i think shes one unique person. a good thinker and super sweet. yes u are! hehe. well i do wish we could meet at some random place one day. who knows, maybe we will. lol. take kare and lots of it! much luvin! ~annnnna
 
Jan 28, 2005 11:19 PM
Oshee says:
 
Wesley, Wesley, Wesley......... How's my favorite person in the whole wizarding world??? Has she faired well? Anyway, WESLEY, because she's no longer natasia, is the BEST person... [even though she thinks that barqs[thumbs down] is better than A&W[THUMBS UP]..] We've had a bumpy ride down our friendship, but we're still here.... Making fun of each other, laugh at each other, making fun of other people with each other[when no one is around], and making fun of chad.[awkward silence] fjeiaow;! Is just the GREATEST.... Isn't Wesley the greatest?! She's better than Salad Fingers or Magical Trevor who's ever so clever (8)look at him now disappearing a cow(8)... HAHAHAHAHA! She's also better than Dan Radcliffe... I only kid, to all those who like him... She's better than those eggs who love the chocolates.... Yep, she's better than THEM! COol! She's just awesome... Like FOR REAL! If you don't know her, then you can go back into your loser hole and not bask in Wesley's AWESOMENESS... REJAIO:! Isn't she just one badass person?? Well, Wesley, "I'd be outy, peace out, cow town", ciao bella! -Jordan P.
 
Jan 14, 2005 1:00 AM
 
Natasia.. aka tash.... I love this girl man she is so out there!!!..... she is everything a person can be looking for in a friend... she is absolutly everything... I really admire her for she will always be there for me no matter what..... through thick and thin.... she is truely.... wait she is also good in writing such sweet letters that could make you go aww..... truely this girl she is everything anyone can ask for she'll listen to anything you have to say even though its not something she wouldn't like tohear... also she is so unique very....... well AMAZING!!!!!!!........ she is truely a great person... so don't hessitate to add her..... you wouldn't wanna miss this type of chick!!!...... tash love you a whole lot ...t akecare peace out juanda
 
Jan 8, 2005 1:17 AM
 
Natasia is one of my closest friends that is totally obsessed with Tom Felton. If she ever happens to meet him he would put a restraining order on her :) But hey, in my opinion, not even Tom is good enough for her. Natasia is a sweet and very funny person. She knows how to make you smile when you feel like everyone has turned their back on you. She's always there for you even now that she's hundreds of miles away. She should be given an award for her individuality and "punkishness"( i know that's not a word so forgive me). It sucks that she's not on the island anymore cause she's the only person that doesn't feel like strangling me when start talking about Jeremy Sumpter or his "look-a-like"(wink wink).
 
Jan 1, 2005 11:08 PM
 
hye sup tash!!!anyways,jus wanted 2 write another testimonial coz im bord as hell!!!!..lol...ane ways tash is an all out fun person,she kool,sweet,nice,funny,crazy,n jus a really kool person 2 know!!!!hey tash jus 2 let u knw me n jordan aren't making an cd,im going solo now....lol...so i think thats it 4 now so peace out and l8a...si,francine panngelinan dela cruz
 
Dec 30, 2004 8:08 PM
 
he AUNTIE TASH...........jus joking!!!!!!!!ne ways...tash is a kool person,he's funny,kool,nice,n sweet!!!!yeah she used 2 b a BIG ds fan but i jus she got over it...........lol.......but she kool as hell,it u need any 1 2 talk 2 or make u laugh tash is d person 2 go 2........lol,she can b shy 4 d 1st 5 mins wen she meets u but after that she can b crazy as hell.....lol(jokez),n im miss her n her bro n sisters,hey tash remember that tym wen i went 2 ur house?........lol,so yeah im running out of words 2 say so ima ditch now.......l8erz tash!!!!!peace n much love,si francine pangelinan dela cruz
 
Dec 25, 2004 11:43 PM
Timma says:
 
HEY - jus luking at ur pic i can tell that u changed a lot - well anyway wassup hows ur christmas im sick damn *cough cough COUGH* *wipes spit and blood off screen* damn all i want for christmas is health ive been wishing since dec 2001 but oh wells...^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ eheheh isnt that annoying.... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !-infinity
 
Dec 24, 2004 4:45 PM
Oshee says:
 
YESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!! TWENTY WATSON, TWENTY TESTIMONIALS! I'm the last one to say something... do i get a prize??? well, 'ello, 'ello.... It's me, Holmes, again to write some more about my best friend and partner, Watson. Yes, she's one of the best homicidal detectives around! Well, it's good to know that the office is clean, just make sure the kids in the basement can't come out.... We're all in a hurry to get those chickens up into the traps..... anyway, enough about work...... Well, Watson/Wesley/Mermaid Jane[tasha is NOT her name! i'm not kidding...fjeioaf;ejwal!] is THE BEST PERSON ALIVE! I'm not kidding... she can do a spaz dance for everyone! [do it Watson so everyone can believe me...] SEE!*smiles cheekily* She's cooL!!! DO IT AGAIN DO IT AGAIN! WOO-HOO! Don't make her stop, she's gonna stop being cool.... anyway, Watson is the best detective around... besides me of course *starts polishing eyeglasses and brings it to the light*.... She's the best person! like THE BEST! Remember in 8th grade when we used to carry fake wands around and scare Hank and J-dizzle?! MANN! those were cool days! LIke I said!, we're cool..... We were the coolest cats around.... Oh yeah..... Everyone knew who we are... "Watson and Holmes...." hahaf0eafkwlaj;aw! [almost did again, Watson... that stupid "lol" word....] About Wesley, now she's really a sneaky little thing.... fjeiaoj;a! she's about as sneaky as sneaky can be... The Slytherin.... The only not dirty one.... And yes, the party at the Malfoy's was j'adore! It was great! Tonight there's a party at the Muffin man's bakery.... We'll have to go.... OH! and There's another party at The Parkinson Manor.... Dunno if I want to go.... Must be like a party for whores.... EWW!!!!!! anyway, best get going... HAPPY CHRISTMAS, WATSON! ciao bella!-jordan isabella/Sherlock Holmes/The Muffin Queen/Oshee
 
Dec 23, 2004 11:04 PM
Yuki says:
 
Hi Natasia!! long time no see!!! how are u doing?? i hope ur doing fine :) because the last time when i saw u, i remember u had a pink eye lol. Natasia is a very fun person!! We used to talk together after school cuz our rides were late most of the time~anyways i miss u!! well, hope to see u around sometimes!! hope u have a good Christmas:) bye bye
-Yuki
 
Dec 22, 2004 7:06 AM
 
Hi Tasia! Thanks for the Testimonial! (",) Anyways, let me start off that this girl is soo beautiful, in and out. She is so kind. I didn't spend a lot of time with her, because she moved schools :(, but the times we did were the best. She is a rocker and should I say gothic? Gothic Chic, I wish I could be like that. Well I'm trying hehe. That was pretty lame. She and I belong to the group of "obsessive freaks"..sorry if that offended you Tash, but I thought it would be funny. She's obsessed with so many guys, I can't even type em' out cuz its too long. Well, I have just a few, but I'm not talking about myself, we're talking about Natasia! She is kind-hearted, and whenever I'm with her, she always has this pretty smile on her face. I wonder how she does it. I should learn from her! LoL. Our little conversations about her family were so fun! Hey, Tash, I saw the notebook you, xav, and sisha made. That was soo funny! Natasia has one of the best personalities. From everyone I met, she's top 3 hehe. Natasia, take care of yourself there in Kent. Don't forget me when you become super famous. Remember, I'm always here if you need someone to talk, just email me! Don't mess around with those guys who don't respect you, because you deserve respect!
 
Dec 10, 2004 7:22 AM
Timma says:
 
hey wasap wasap wasabi man - das japanese, wat we're taking in mba now and wat im failing. i sure miss n wish u wr bak....cuz i bet ud probly pay atention in class n i cud copy d homewrk off of u - LIL! ahah thas laughing in loud cuz u kno i don sho any emotion seriously i dont i didnt even laugh at my brothrs funeral - ahah jk i dont got a dum brothr eheh LIL! oh ya this is testimonial i gotta say how great u r - - MAN NATASIA KICKS EMMA WATSON'S ASS!!! - ladderz man -

-m.z.
 
Dec 7, 2004 12:42 AM
Oshee says:
 
"you make my eyes bleed with water so rare, it transforms to crystals when it hits your finger.......... and then...It sometimes can be the most precious jewel on the planet if you would like to make it.... Keep my tears a secret forever...." NEW SONG I WROTE!!!! Do you like it?? I hope you do...haha... can't wait 'til England, wes..... 'til then, let the crusades of loneliness go on!-jordan(and i still have every ounce of my well-being to live a long full life 'til England.....)
 
Dec 4, 2004 7:21 PM
Oshee says:
 
"She swims into a room full of floating people
She glides into a space full of laughing creatures
Swimming floating
Laughing about the water
She's diving falling and crying

She glides into a room full of broken lava-lamps
She lays down on the ceramic floor
Gliding swimming floating about the water
She falling racing and broken

The seaweed is always greener underwater
Down there she cannot hear the rain
Her eyes won't stain with run mascara anymore
'cause she's a mermaid jane

She soars into a bright white clouds
She plunges into the deep green sea
She's diving flying plunging into the wetness
She's free now gone now but happy


In time I'll run
In time I'll feel the sun

Yea she's a mermaid jane
Forever"- poor wesley, you'll forever be MY mermaid jane if that makes you happy..... hold on, 'cause we'll be fine....-Jordan
 
Oct 25, 2004 1:25 AM
 
Hey Tash Wassupp Girl!!!! Well hey everyone this is my greatest of the great cuz Tash... She is the best. She is really caring and loves Harry Potter... I miss her so much I want her to come back soon... She is good in listening to your problems no matter how stupid or crazy they are. She gives good advices too! She is really funny and loves to play tricks on people... So if you don't know her get to know her cuz you will freak out of how badass she is!!! So take care Tash and be good!!! Peace... XOXO Dori.

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